Loon's Lunatic idea of life

cough cough.. it is soo dusty in here.. looks like i haven't been home for a long time. have to start to clean up all my stuff that i have left here.. all those pass history will have to be orginze and dust them up... will there will be updates too.. so here is it:

I have start working already for about 1 month but i am not very happy here with my work.. i can't get much sleep and then i have to wake up damn early. it is not fun. to make it worst!!! i have not been online for a long time to even check my mail.. only yesterday i start cleaning it up. looks like there have been a mountian of rubbish in those emails. I did get a job offer last week you know. a GD job that i want to work but too bad, they cannot wait for about 1 month to resign.. they want it imiediately.. that is some thing that i cannot do at all? how can i just run off to some where and i leave this job. i don't mind if i have got the pay but that time. i haven't get it yet so i cannot just run a way.. now my friend have another job vaccant in their company and i want to try out there... but will they willing to wait for me for about 1 month? if they do i do not mind at all.. i just want to change job from this one..

it is not bad the enviroment here but i do not like tha job scope at all for it is not my interst to read and study. worst this is they even have test and i have to do very very well in it to get the job .. might as will i just run away and that is the end of the career here.. acctually i don't think i want to have a career here.. it is not my type. every thing here is nice but i do not want some part ofthe package that will kill me at all times... hai... another conflict with the work place....

good news is. i am going to get my play station 2 already and i am happy for i will be able to play the games i want most... very very happy for i want it for a long time.. XD just need to wait for about 2 weeks more becasue i will not be able to go there for i am going to mlk this friday.. i do not think that my father will allow me to bring back that stuff and duuno what he will say when i spend it. maybe i will have to wait until my next pay check to come out and then i will be very very rich to buy my dvd also..muahhahahahah... i am crazy already.. don mind me.. i have to end here not for i haven't finish cleaning all the stuff here.... forgive my stupid spelling mistake..
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Hihihihi... Suiki/Julie here and working now not having fun but also having one now. hahah..weird leh. I have a job now and I am working in HSDM [which have connection to HSBC bank but not a bank] now. It is quite fun and it it very far from the course I have studied, graphic design. Now I am working as a Global Support Executive, which I am still not very sure which part I will have to take later. I found out there are a lot of department that thye have hired and I may be working for HongKong region. Still I am not sure for I will have to go through another assesment again at the end of the second week that will be next week. Forgot to annouce/type that I have start work for about a week.

Next week will be my second week. There isn't much to say about this job other that it is very a custormer service work and I have to wake up very early to get to work for the first 3 weeks. You will soon see a dead body of me next year if this keep on going. I have to wake up 4.30 am to get ready and get to the pick-up point before 5.40 am which is too early for me but I manage to wake up by force. I am going to die, lacking of sleep every night. soon you will see a rare animal in replace of me, walking around the working area and Klang [Panda]. The job enviroment isn't very bad but it is also not very good. it have a lot of things that I kind of like it and but lack on the same problem when I studied in LimKokWing University. No food, No shoping mall and heat. Lukcy for me that I do not have to go out to find food and the food here is not very bad. For the moment, I am at bliss becasue I do not have to do any work and just play around. They are training me for the moment with the skills and the basic information that they want us to know. It is almost like going to lecture class again. The good olds days where we have to rush to finish our work and pass up. There are some diffrent in this lecture and other lecture, we do not have much work but to just sit there and stare at the slides for the first week and then chat when we have time. Actually we have a lot of time but we cannot do what every we want like last time.

Rules in HSDM is very diffrent and we have to keep a lot of things "shut up". Can't tell you much about it. Stuff like pen-drive and laptops are phrobited to be brought for security reason. So now I am like a zombie sitting in the class doing nothing and stare into a few eyes and smile. That is my daily job now and will be changing soon after induction pass. Not everything in this bank is bad but there are a lot of privilage working here also. For example I have some advantages in bank account and so on. A lot of the fee were "wave" and i can get a lot of thing by just paying RM 30 to open a account. => Very very very benifitial. Maybe I will be able to get some diskaun in loan also[that is if I work long enough]...

This talk about the work keeps reminding me about my salary. I have already plan out what I am going to buy and spend when I get my pay. Muahhahahahhah. => My long long long dream, my Play Station 2... I have plan to grab it while I can afford it. That planning exclude the plaing of the rent, car, parent,food and so on. XD I hope after deduction on EPF and others, I hope I have enough to buy the Play Station 2 becasue I will find a time and way to get it even though I have to borrow money from them. I need it becasue I want to "touch" it before I get the Play Station 3. I will, don worried even i have to rob a bank. Play Station 3 have evolude to a very high tech CPu and I feel that I can only used half of the function they provide. Any way, I think I have talk too much and will be stoping here for the moment... You will see me again blogging when I have too free time during my working hours... Got to get some things to eat first.. Don't woried for I will be back soon..

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Hip hip hurray for me. I have gone through a lot of things these few months and I learn quite a lot weird stuff. Stuff that you can do in interview but not good things... XD [interviewer thought me one]. There is good news and bad news for my situation now. Well... bad news first, I am looking for a freelance design job. If any one knows about it, can intro to me lah... since I need it. Other than that, I am looking for a room. I have leach too long on my sister and cousin [though she don mind about it] I is it possible. I am looking for one near Puchong’ IOI mall because there is where food if nice. I don’t mind in Subang’s Summit also. If I can’t find it or get one that is suitable for me... looks like I have to stay in nilai. Sob sob sob sob sob… To add more trouble to it, I want to play PS2 because I say my cousin’s friend stack of RPG games and all of them I want to play. The effect of playing….. I don need to say any more, I got addicted to those games. There is one game, Fatal Frame, which is some kind of ghost story and it is very interesting. It is about 2 sisters who “was reborn again” went into a haunted village that seems to be lose from the map for a long time after the festival. The objective of the game is to catch or exercise the ghost through a camera. It is nice and the game is eerie... the graphic is much better than silent hills games a loootttt… I think my younger sister will like it a lot since she flavors ghost story so much. With this, my resolution to get PS 2 will come true... Very very soon this year... I am still waiting for a job call from cr8 adv… if it is possible. I really would like to work there. The environment there is great and I kind of love it. But too bad, I am still waiting for their calls. Sob sob. Other than that, I think there is no more…

Now for the good news is…… I will be getting cash soon... At the end of the month. I am really happy.. got income now. Muahahahahhahaha… my wish to get PS 2 will be sooonn…. Another good thing is, PS 3 coming out and it is full of function that I will not used. Hahahahha.. like Bluetooth, DVD burner and so on. Hai.. this makes me wonder whether I should buy PS3 a not since I don’t used the other function much…

Yesterday, I was so free so I decide to play with my friend and ask to married me. Then I told that friend of mine about our what life will be :

We will be dating for 30 min. Then kiss for 15 min, go to bed [hotel, u know what it means lah. Takkan u so stupid] 5 min, register for marriage certificate ->3 min, married [ceremony with flowers and so on]à2min, honey moon in Japanà1min, then we immediately divorce within 30 sc..

So that is my life with my friend within 1 hr…. so short but memorable…..

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If you have a chance to go back to the past or move on to the future, which will you choose? If it is me, I will stay where I am now. I have seen a comic that kind of questions me a bit with the question. I notice most people will choose the past so they can correct themselves and make it better for them in the future that they know what happen, But why people like past more than future? Is it because they want to correct themselves for easier life? To prevent some incident from happening? Or is it because the future is uncertain and no one knew what is going to happen?

Isn’t it a bit boring to live a life that you know what is going to happen and try to make it better? What happen if that particular action backfire and things goes worst than usual? Change is not always for better and life is much nice without us knowing what the future holds.

Some people are a great liar and keep saying that it is not their fault. It irritate me a lot when they say I didn’t call them when I have called them 5 times and they do not fucking answer their calls… And every fucking time I called, instead of that person answering the call I got the stupid voice mail to answer for me. I am fed up with these people. What the fuck do you need a cell phone for when you don’t even answer the call? Are they deaf or they are too stupid to answer them on time? Then they come out with stupid excuse like; “I can’t hear” “Did u call?” “Opps. I just got your call lah. I didn’t notice…” WTF you talking about. Just throw a way the dam phone if you can’t even answer the dam phone. You are a company man, don’t you answer your customer’s phone.

Like the interview I went today, there was this company that was place in Kota damansara and it is deserted. They have no sign on the road to indicate what’s the name of it. How do you expect me to find it? Not only that. Other’s shops also don’t where it is located. I have to call up the company to find out their where bout. The first 4 calls, it didn’t get through. After the 5th call, there is a damn receptionist on the other side and I quickly ask for the direction of the place. What the hell. She orders me to follow her direction and she quickly said it in a grumpy voice. I didn’t get what she talking about so I ask her to repeat again. Hell she grumbles at me and say I “deaf” very softly [I can hear it though]. Hell. What type of receptionist are you? Where the hell is the “Customer Service”? I got so so mad at her and I nearly scolded her. Now I have the bad impression of that company that I hope I don get empolyed there. Die also don want..

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Kuala Selangor will be my last vacation spot for the next 2 years until I have enough to go traveling again. Cash has been ok for me since I have some saving in the bank but I will not be able to buy my PS2 as soon as I wanted it to be. Looks like I have to wait for a few more months before I can even feel the touch of the PS2 skin. Hai… I have been waiting for so long to have it but it seems like it is going further and further… All the money that I have been saving for that PS 2 is getting lesser and lesser. Since I have to start working in Nilai soon. I hope that I will not spend too much on food since I like to eat a lot. Looks like I have to get ready my diet + saving-food-money plan into action soon. Maybe then I will be able to buy the stuff I want.

Well it is my first time to Kuala Selangor and I wonder what is there to c other then firefly, my friends are planning to go there just for the fire fly and I am not sure what else is there. Should I bring a laptop there? Just in case I am bored but it will be very risky to do it. Just in case we have to go somewhere else and do not have a place to put the stuff. Hope it will be a good place and not a very very "ulu" place. I want to go "lepak" when I reach there. Like I wrote in the pervious blog, I cannot live with out Internet. I do hope the new place has Internet and I do not have to suffer for it. I cannot live with out the net… Noooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!…

Any way, my mom have problem with my new work place. Because I will be dealing with paint a lot but not direct contact with it, she still worried about all the chemicals and stuff. I do not hope to work there long but if I have no choice, I will have to work there for about 6 months. Least. By then I really hope to get another good job by then. Maybe I will be lucky to get another good pay job. I think I will find a freelance job while working with this company. Since he didn’t say I can’t and I think it will be in private also. I am so bad. I still haven’t get a look at the new work place yet but I hope it will be a good place and at least better from my expectation. I hope it don crash down and gone worst then want I have thought. I will have to suffer if I cannot cope with it. Hope hope hope hope. That’s all I can do. I don’t think I can expend much from there cause there are not much designing stuff for me to do. I will just have to color the drawing and then pass up to the workers and I do not find it as a good job even though it looks like an easy pay job. I am sure the boss will call me to do more than the stuff they said. Sigh… If the situation is like that, I better ask for an allowances or OT pay

"To find out what one is fitted to do, and to secure an opportunity to do it, is the key to happiness."-John Dewey

“The hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn."-David Russell

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What wrong with my eyes? Because of comic

Some people wonder how I can stare on the surface of the monitor for the whole day a avoid it for eat, sleep and toilet. Well some of us out there can do it while others don’t. Well, it depends on activities that you are doing while facing the monitor. Most of the time I will be downloading my never ending collection of manga. Manga = Japanese comic. Reference for people who don’t know the meaning. It is never ending because different group of fans out there release their hard work n the different day and there are thousand of them here and there. I do see various manga from Hnter X Hunter [which are more to boys, action, fantasy] to “Shoujo” manga[girl, romance, date, relationship]. Not only that. I also download one type of manga that most Malaysian won’t acpect them, “Yaoi & Yuri” [for those who don’t know this Japanese term, it is gay, lesbian, sensual manga]. I know not every one will like it but I read every thing. Most of my college friends knew about it already and they are used to my weird hobby. I even have a guy friend requesting Yuri & Eechi manga’s website form me. I am quite open in these part but not all.. Weird right.

Anyway, every time I face the comp. There will sure be some bugger that will come and kacau kacau even there a busy sign there. Either that bugger don’t understand sign language. They do not undestand that I am busy of hsome weird cool. Any way. I have to stop already,,..i am getting woied.my enegery. I need to go back to the lovely bed and have my beacuty sleep. Today’s blog will be short and usless.

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What is the first thought that come thru your brain when u hear the sentence, “XXXX, we have decide to employ you.” Will my first thought will be, “Yeah!! I am saved from the word BANKRUPT.” I have manage and found a job in Nilai that are sure to employ me but on the other hand, I am not sure whether I want to work there a not. Nilai is not a bad place to work but the place might be a bit hard for me to stay since I need to have the Internet with me to survive. Without it…. I will die or bored unless I have my PS 2[Play station 2], which I haven’t bought it yet. Soon… Soon it will come into my small hands will pride. If it doesn’t, I will have to invest in my friends work [something like direct selling and I have to pay 2.5 k to do it.] Back to the topic, working in Nilai. I will be working wit a paint company and I have a very easy job [I think it is]. I just have to print out the stuff and add colors to it. Easy right? But I also have to survey and do a lot a lot of research on the community. I have quite a reasonable pay but I do not think it can support my old car and me. I have to drive to work and that is for sure unless I have a scooter to accompany me, on a long lonely and “ulu” way to work place. It will be good in I go back early b4 dark, but what happen if I have to do OT? Then, I will have to meet some thing that float alone in the middle of the road, white and Smokey and give me the shivers to the spine. So car is a must no matter what happens. Life sucks sometimes but can’t be help. I will consider it if I can find a room near my friend’s house and it have Internet. I will be happy and won’t mind working there. Cost of living in Nilai is much cheaper than KL or Selangor. So now I have to thinking about it more and more b4 going to work…. Haiii..

Another thing is the business that my friend suggested. She says it is very profitable and fast to get cash. From the way she explains the procedure it is fast and easy, and I do believe it will be a fast way to get money but there is a few problems with it. First problem is the modal to start investing and how to get it. I can‘t just simply ask 2.5k fm my mom and start it. Whatever way I try it will for sure to come into a rejection. So I have to delay it. The other problem is the way they work and the whole company system. It is a system where people keep investing and investing only and they get the interested every time the other people or the people under them succeeded a sale. I can’t actually explain every thing and the procedure here in this blog because u needs another person to tell you the whole situation in person only you will understand. Until now...I am not quite sure about what the works is about. I will think about it when I have the money to provide the modal. I will think of it as an investment in the future but for now, No way I can join that kind of work. Too risky.

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My main problem today is THE STREAMX!!!!!! How can they be so BAD to me!!! I can't even load my email acct! Hell. How can I do my work like this? Of all days, today they have to break down. So heartless!! I cannot live with out my internet!!

Actually… I was downloading my anime and comic that I have missed out a few days ago. **Shy off and hid behind the monitor** Well every one have their own interest that they have to do every day, Right? I can live with out manga but I can live without touching the computer or sleep. Usual me, Piggy of the house. Can’t help it for I am born to be lazy.

Any way, I have been busy looking for a job in Singapore and KL and mom have been busy nagging me about what I should wear for the interview and so on. She even suggests bringing me go to the Salon just to wash my long hair.

“You have to be very need. First impression is very important. Must wear the skirt to the interview, ok?”

Ya ya ya. I know I have to be neat for the first interview. Basic knowledge but go to salon and spend RM 30 for trimming and washing? No way I am going to do it. I might as well stay at home and try fixing my lack-of-maturity portfolio. You might think that it is a good suggestion but I don. I am too stingy to go and waste RM 30 for a short-hair-trim-wash and do not see any different when I come out of the salon. For most people that knew me, wearing skirts is not my style and I do not think I will look good in skirt. I prefer pants more that skirt. If you guys want to see me in skirt, wait until I get married. Hahahaha. Then you will have an opportunity to look at me with a very long skirt. Maybe in the future you will see me change but for now… No Skirts. I am no damsel. I am a weird gal and not yet a woman.


Truth is within ourselves; it takes no rise
From the outward things, whate'er you may believe.
There is an inmost centre in us all,
Where truth abides in fulness; and around,
Wall upon wall, the gross flesh hems it in,
This perfect, clear perception - which is truth.
Browning.

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You're alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act.

Barbara Hall, A Summons to New Orleans, 2000

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Helo.. This is the will be a new opening of my blog. Becasue of some memory problem. i have forgotten my password to the pervious acct.. so i have to start a new one. Fear not for it will still be like the previous one..

Here is the previous post i have written:

To who so ever will read this blog...

i pity u.. muahahha because i will write crap and stuff that u may not want to hear and read about.. some times, i may not even update it. and i have no idea how long will this blog last.. but i will sure to write for the mean time.. maybe... this inter will last until i grew too old and have too many childrens to mess wit.. Who knows. I may not even have one.So for now, this is the grand or so call grand opening of my blog. Soon I will have to redesign my website and make a blog there. This blog will contain my stories.. about life, intrest, complains, opinion and maybe some weird issuse.


Sorry for the trouble. thx for reading

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